Fear of Failing

It's weird to think I am afraid of failing cause I fail at stuff all the time... cooking, eating healthy, keeping secrets, the list goes on and on. But here lately I've  really struggled with failing in some new leadership roles. I currently coach Volleyball and at the start of every new season I start stressing about how unqualified I am compared to other coaches. I probably spend 20% of my day worried about what parents think of me. The result of all this worry and fear do NOTHING!!!!
Now, on top of my annual vball coaching fear I have added the fear of failing as a youth leader. Josh has been given the opportunity to lead the youth at Pine Ridge, and when your married you and your spouse are one... So, YOU know what that means,... ME TOO.  Just saying I am a "pastors wife" makes me want to hide in bed and never go out in public. Boy, I thought I was unqualified to be a volleyball coach.... this doesn't even come close. And the worst part is I have been stressing over this since May and we don't even start till Mid August... Talk about a waste...
Now that you know what I am afraid of here is what I think the Lord is teaching me through this... HE LOVES ME... Deep stuff, Right?

 I have always considered it kinda corny when Pastors talk about how much God loves his children..."Jesus loves the little children ... all the children of the world" that plays in my head when I hear sermons on God's love. But what I didn't realize until last Wednesday (thanks to Pastor Deharts sermon on Rival!!) is that He loves ME. yep, I said it !! Jesus loves him some Big Al! and through that understanding I should be content. The creator of the universe loves me and that's all that matters... Jeremiah 1:5 says that He knew all about me before I knew me. and... that He has holy plans for me. 

So, my new goal is to long for His love, not because I need to be rescued, or want to be rich, or blessed, or any of the awesome blessings that come from being a child of the King. But Simply because His love is all that I need.