A life long battle

Today is Sunday and i feel great. I spent Wed nite thur Saturday nite at mb, SC and i am now doubting all my feelings from those days. Vacations use to mean beach and beer but now it's totally different. Beer = bull. All that partying is just in the moment fun that dies as soon as its over. God and His love is eternal. I have had more happiness and vacation today then i had at the beach. Don't get me wrong I still talked to the Lord everyday and tried to focus on him but just the atmosphere was a constant struggle. A battle was ragging inside my head there. Now that i am home it's easier to avoid temptation. Sometimes i wonder if that means i am weak. The devil tells me that it means i am going to fail and this goody-two-shoes act is all going to shatter. That's when i use my weapon and say that with God's grace and the holy spirit i am not going to fail b/c i have been made new in him!! Just typing that gives me goose bumbs!!! Thank you Lord for saving my soul! Thank you Lord for making me Whole! Thank you Lord for giving to me thy Great salvation so rich and free!! If only i could quote scripture like i could song... i guess ill get there one day!!
Anyway i also wanna blog about my convo con mi Papas. On the way home last night i was talking to him about how pumped I am that my BFF is coming to church next Sunday. Then i asked him about his BFF. and to be totally honest he made excuses for his home boy. He told me that HIS bff was raised in church by Christian parents, and that he was a good person. He said he did alot for charities, he created organizations that helped others and that he was truly a good hearted person... I wanted to pop my dad upside his head. I even wondered if my Dad truely understood what being saved was? It is not by our works.. Read Ephesians 2:1-10 or Romans 4 Salvation is a gift not a job and the reason is we are all sinners, we are all bad and no matter how much good we do it will not out do our bad. What my dad should have said was my bff doesn't knw Jesus either... I guess my goal is now to not only bring my BFF to Jesus but to help my dad see how important it is.
And one last thing.. I feel like im turning into a hypocrite but i Hate it when ppl tell me they are coming to church and then back out.. Don't they get that they are losing the battle. It's a life long battle. The devil is watching our every move and waiting for every little chance to get in and push us further from the Lord.. anyway i just wanted to get all that out of my system.. No one reads my blogs anyway. it's just my personal diary that gmail saves and makes cute for me... this way i can add pics and spell words correctly
I love Jesus!! Romans 4:6 "the one who trusts God to do the putting-everything-right without insisting on having a say in it is one fortunate man. (or woman)

finding happiness

to be happy, its something people constantly search for .everyone wants it. I don't know anyone who doesn't. but my question is do we appreciate when we are experiencing it. im constantly looking forward to things, events, MY BIRTHDAY!! THE BEACH. but during and afterwards do i thank God for the good time or the happiness i felt? I had been looking forward to this weekend. we had a yard sale and then i went to the lake with the middle school. Now im looking forward to the beach trip i have coming up. What im trying to get at is I experienced an abundant amount of happiness this weekend but i didn't just sit back and embrace what i was experiencing. My preacher today made a comment about how its tough at times to remember the last time God has blessed you. My thinking is do i thank Him during and after my happy moments?
Well I guess I should finish my blog saying that i had a great weekend with my family and friends and i was blessed by the amount of love i felt and the money I made. God is good! if you question that then please hit me up. I am more then willing to hear you out. Have a blessed week and remember God IS LOVE!