i feel like Jesus has given me one of those revelation type of mornings, which is good because I always need those. I was thinking about how deep inside, the biggest want/need of everyone is to be loved unconditionally. Whether it is when we are young and it is our parents, a little older and with our friends, then in relationships which eventually would lead to your spouse. And most of the time we feel like we deserve this unconditional love and expect it. But we expect that from imperfect people who are, just by nature, incapable of loving us the way we desperately desire. And all the while God is right beside us, longing for us to want a relationship with Him that most people won't ever acknowledge. Or when we get busy, or off God's plan for our lives we push Him aside, either because we don't trust Him, don't think we deserve His plan, or think we know better. God is the only one capable of loving us all the way we desire and all we have to do is accept it. And people don't even think it is worth a chance to try and see if it works. Why is it so hard for us to accept God's unconditional love but demand it from imperfect people?
So while I was thinking of all that, I was going over all the ways we distance ourselves from God. So I was thinking about sin and everything. And I was thinking of ungodly relationships and addiction. And I read an article about an actor that just died from an overdose, and it was talking about how addiction itself changes the chemistry of our brains, not just drugs or alcohol, but addiction itself. And I found studies about how the same parts of our brains are chemically altered permanently when you fall in love, just like when someone does drugs. And I have always believed that people can be addicted to falling in love just like drugs, but never realized the seriousness of it. It literally changes your brain forever. And man, it just really further showed me why it is so important to have a relationship with God and not just follow rules, and why it is so important to guard your heart even when you don't feel like it. And how great God is. He is for us, and He has a plan for all of us. And how we just keep hurting ourselves when we try to force our plan over God's perfect plan for our life.
I don't know, I mean I guess I always knew all of that, but it seems to have a whole new meaning right now. And that may be something worth sharing with your high school girls. Oh, how I wish I had leaders that instilled those kinds of things, like why it is so important to guard your heart (for young women especially) and a relationship with Jesus into us, instead of rule following. It is so important and I had no idea how important until I was learning the hard way. And it is such a struggle to accept even now. God had blessed me and loves me, and I know that. But then I still have times where I get my butt on my shoulders and have a pity party and can't even accept the perfect love of God. Why is it so easy to trust imperfect people and crave acceptance from them and so hard to literally just accept the perfect plan and love of Jesus?
Anyways, God is good! Amen hahahahahha
