A life long battle

Today is Sunday and i feel great. I spent Wed nite thur Saturday nite at mb, SC and i am now doubting all my feelings from those days. Vacations use to mean beach and beer but now it's totally different. Beer = bull. All that partying is just in the moment fun that dies as soon as its over. God and His love is eternal. I have had more happiness and vacation today then i had at the beach. Don't get me wrong I still talked to the Lord everyday and tried to focus on him but just the atmosphere was a constant struggle. A battle was ragging inside my head there. Now that i am home it's easier to avoid temptation. Sometimes i wonder if that means i am weak. The devil tells me that it means i am going to fail and this goody-two-shoes act is all going to shatter. That's when i use my weapon and say that with God's grace and the holy spirit i am not going to fail b/c i have been made new in him!! Just typing that gives me goose bumbs!!! Thank you Lord for saving my soul! Thank you Lord for making me Whole! Thank you Lord for giving to me thy Great salvation so rich and free!! If only i could quote scripture like i could song... i guess ill get there one day!!
Anyway i also wanna blog about my convo con mi Papas. On the way home last night i was talking to him about how pumped I am that my BFF is coming to church next Sunday. Then i asked him about his BFF. and to be totally honest he made excuses for his home boy. He told me that HIS bff was raised in church by Christian parents, and that he was a good person. He said he did alot for charities, he created organizations that helped others and that he was truly a good hearted person... I wanted to pop my dad upside his head. I even wondered if my Dad truely understood what being saved was? It is not by our works.. Read Ephesians 2:1-10 or Romans 4 Salvation is a gift not a job and the reason is we are all sinners, we are all bad and no matter how much good we do it will not out do our bad. What my dad should have said was my bff doesn't knw Jesus either... I guess my goal is now to not only bring my BFF to Jesus but to help my dad see how important it is.
And one last thing.. I feel like im turning into a hypocrite but i Hate it when ppl tell me they are coming to church and then back out.. Don't they get that they are losing the battle. It's a life long battle. The devil is watching our every move and waiting for every little chance to get in and push us further from the Lord.. anyway i just wanted to get all that out of my system.. No one reads my blogs anyway. it's just my personal diary that gmail saves and makes cute for me... this way i can add pics and spell words correctly
I love Jesus!! Romans 4:6 "the one who trusts God to do the putting-everything-right without insisting on having a say in it is one fortunate man. (or woman)

finding happiness

to be happy, its something people constantly search for .everyone wants it. I don't know anyone who doesn't. but my question is do we appreciate when we are experiencing it. im constantly looking forward to things, events, MY BIRTHDAY!! THE BEACH. but during and afterwards do i thank God for the good time or the happiness i felt? I had been looking forward to this weekend. we had a yard sale and then i went to the lake with the middle school. Now im looking forward to the beach trip i have coming up. What im trying to get at is I experienced an abundant amount of happiness this weekend but i didn't just sit back and embrace what i was experiencing. My preacher today made a comment about how its tough at times to remember the last time God has blessed you. My thinking is do i thank Him during and after my happy moments?
Well I guess I should finish my blog saying that i had a great weekend with my family and friends and i was blessed by the amount of love i felt and the money I made. God is good! if you question that then please hit me up. I am more then willing to hear you out. Have a blessed week and remember God IS LOVE!

Run Your Own Race

So Saturday i went to Raleigh for a cookout and some PT. I found out that the October class is full and i will have to wait till May 29th. Wow that's a long long time away. When i found out i was shocked. but then after about a half hour of trying to catch my breath from PTing i realized that it's all good!!. Life is good, God is great and His plan for me is still to go to the Marines but just not yet. So much is going on here in Alamance County. I am working will some cool peeps down at the cove and i guess God wants me to focus on that. I am afraid of idol time. I fear that if i do not stay busy, i will lose focus and forget where God has put me. Saturday morning i was calling my mom freaking out about going to Raleigh and when i finished at the cookout i was calling her back to tell her about all the great things God had laid on my heart. I want to live all out for God!! Nothing is more fulling then giving it all to Jesus. Words can not described the change that has come since i started focusing on what God wants me to do. "Let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of faith" Hebrews 12:1-2

Monday!!

Normally Monday's stink but this Monday is my last Monday before going back to work so it was pretty good! I had a pretty good weekend! We watched 17 again. Very very funny!! I didn't end up scoring high enough on the asvab last week so ive been kinda bummed about that but all i need to do is work on my math. I scored higher then the 1st time i took it but im still short a few points. This means i want know if im going for sure until the very last minute. OH WELL God has me involved in great things here so i am trying to stay focused on TODAY! GOD IS LOVE! peace out

ASVAB

Today i am going to Raleigh to take the ASVAB for a 2nd time! I am very excited to be going because this is a hurtle that i have not yet been able to jump over. The test is pretty basic but half of it contains sections that i have little knowledge on experience in. For example electrical and mechanical knowledge. But i have put in a lot of study time trying to learn this information instead of memorizing it. Please pray for me today! I need all the help i can get!! God is Love!

Its the weekend!!

Good morning!! this week has been crazy, it started off great and then half way through the week i fell off. I think i might be having some ear trouble so i had to slow down and recoop. anyway now it's Saturday and i am trying to get my week figured out. I am a planner so i like to plan my week out ahead of time. I made up with an old friend this week, that was a pos and yesterday was pay day!! wooo hoo. I have almost finished my book and now im plan on getting focused on the Marines. Pray for me b/c i need some serious help. God is Love!! Peace Out!!

Hump Day!!

My humps my humps my humps!! its the middle of the week!!! yah!! and i have had a great week so far. Yesterday i was offered a coaching position and i am debating on whether or not to take it!! I am excited but also a little hesitant. I am leaving September 29th and i am afraid i am putting too much on my plate. On the other hand I feel like God is opening doors for me and preparing me before i leave. I guess ill just have to keep praying about it!! GOD IS LOVE !! peace out

My boyfriend wonders why?

So i have begun this blogging thing and my boyfriend wonders why i do this. My answer is simply ..I enjoy communication. I am no longer in school and i feel like I am losing knowledge. In school you get so caught up in constantly learning new information you ended up taking it for granted. Reading and writing was a life style for me for a minum of 4 years. The other week I went to a Seminar on Strengths and it gave me my top 5. Communication is third on my list. I want to use blogging as an outlet as I develop my strengths. I like witing alittle something down everyday and i love being able to pick the topic! Peace Out! God is Love!!

attitude!!

so it worked!! i reshaped my attitude and ended up having a great Monday. The heat was still extreme but it didn't matter because i stayed inside ha ha.!! well have a great one!! peace out

MondayS

Monday Blues STINK, it's very hard to get back into routine after a nice long weekend. My goal is to try and focus on the positive but i feel very sluggish. The high temps today make me want to hide inside but i doubt that will happen. my PRAYER for today is that everyone has a fast moving Monday and that all my friends and family make it to and from work safely. God Bless!! peace outt

new at bloggin

so i figured i would join the new era of bloggers and start a blog. Today has been a pretty good day. I have spent the majority of it alone and that has been a difficult thing for me. I love to be around other people so i find it lonely when i have no one to be with. My boyfriend is outta town on vacation and my mom lives in SC. My Dad is recently separated so he spends his weekends with his boys in Winston. I have friends but they tend to dodge me on Sundays b/c they are afraid i might ask them to church. I understand that people want to sleep in on Sundays. Sometimes i wish Church wasn't on a Sunday, then maybe i wouldn't have to go alone.